Friday, January 8, 2010

Desperately Imperfect Update

For the Perfect Ten Challenge (see my sidebar under LogMyLoss), I had 4 great goals. So far I am failing spectacularly at, let's see, 3.

1. Exercise at least 3 hours a week. First week back at work. MIL ended her stay yesterday with some fireworks and not the good kind. Sigh.

2. Drink 3 cups of tea a day. This one I got.

3. Weigh in at 167. Hollow laughter.

4. Attitude alignment. My attitude sucks.

I am, as feared, not writing, not exercising, not having fun, not being nice to my husband, not taking care of my house, and not cleaning up after Christmas. What I am doing is my usual 4-6 pickups a day plus working. And charting at home. My day ended at 11:40 pm last night. So I'm pretty wretched at the moment. I suspect some of it is due to the fact that I haven't exercised which combined with the above plus bad hair is making me into an unedifying ball of misery.

We don't absolutely have to have my salary to survive and I need to take a moment to be grateful for that. I really, really hate the thought of quitting a job I started a week ago. Talk about epic fail. My employers are kindly and reasonable and it is not their fault, it's just the nature of the work.

Oh, and the unknown fact about me? Did you know that I am of choleric temperament, and when things don't go well, I don't get depressed like a normal person, I turn into a furious slavering bitch? With bad hair color? Does that qualify as a little-known fact?

9 comments:

  1. Everyone has bad days and weeks. You can start over any time. I'm betting that your mother in law is the root of this stuff, right?
    Don't let her make you miserable. (if that's the cause).
    Do something great for yourself today.

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  2. Don't beat yourself up. It's aiming for the goals that's important. More so than reaching them (or as my yoga instructor says "it's the journey that matters not the destination).

    Don't lose faith just because you're not achieving what you set out for yourself today. We all have good days and bad days.

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  3. In laws were put on this earth to make our lives more difficult, I am convinced!! Not all of them, of course, but just enough. Don't beat yourself up over the 3 "I didn'ts", you'll get back on track.

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  4. I turn into a hateful waste of a person, too. I thought I was the only one! Seriously, I hope things get better for you.

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  5. I'm glad you felt safe to rant here. You are safe here.

    My temperament definitely has an ugly side. Ooh boy, yeah }:-< Exercise, even a short walk, helps. I think you nailed it when you suspected lack of exercise...and lack of sleep...and the MIL...and the new job...

    Attitude is justified.

    I hope you can get more sleep soon. My world is intolerable without sleep.

    Your space,time is being invaded.

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  6. Work really gets in the way of enjoying life.

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  7. Between going back to work and MIL you had a lot going on this week. Don't let this get you down. This upcoming week will probably be a lot better.

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  8. Ooh, someone's having a good hissy fit! (They burn extra calories, you know.)(Oh Lord, I hope they do.:))

    Just being AWARE that you're not where you want to be is progress. Now you just have to align your life and your goals. It will happen because you WANT it to happen.

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  9. Just don't give up! Pick up and start again. You will reach your goals with persisitance. I agree that this week had a lot of struggles... give yourself time to adjust to everything. things will get better. :)

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