I will confess in bullet points. Makes it seem more coherent somehow.
* June was a parade of houseguests, intense inlaw discussions, 19,000 hours of ballet rehearsal and performance, end of school stuff, graduation, anxiety about getting 3 kids productively employed for the summer, and fostering a cat which is AWOL somewhere in the house at the moment.
*I hurt myself doing dumbbell rows, but I'm better now.
*My tummy hurts and my ever-lurking health anxiety is at Defcon 3.
*My MIL is failing physically, is anxious and (justifiably) needy and does not wish to be either. She needs more from my husband and me than we're used to, and she has less internal strength to cope. My 79 year old FIL is planning to move to the area this August and my husband will need to divide himself into smaller pieces than he does now.
*I haven't been able to make any time for Finishing My Book, which was supposed to be this summer's project.
*I feel inefficient and divided and mad at myself for becoming so.
*My tummy hurts, did I say that?
*I have been getting some workouts in, eating pretty well, and keeping my weight just this side of red line which is 2 pounds higher than what it says on my sidebar.
I feel like I shouldn't be this stressed because, knock wood please God, nothing is really wrong. But I feel anxious and guilty much of the time which is not how I want to live my life.
Advice, please? Anybody?